Monday, June 25, 2007

Yesterday, Today, and the Other Day...

Yesterday... Or should I say "Last Night" we went to Trinoma this new Ayala land development in Quezon City. I was with Jeff and Jeffy. I was not really in a going out mood because I didn't get enough sleep due to super extreme partying... I was actually super crashing. I felt like I was so empty, as if I was a person who gave away all my energy, love, and emotions.

Last Night didn't really turn out bad. We met Henry, Jhon, Anna, and this "guy" who's a V.I.P at Palawan Disco bar. My best friend Henry gave me surprise gift... A 20 karat triangle divine divaness ring... All of the emptiness and sadness were gone. And was filled with joy and happiness. "Thanks Henry!"

After our intimate conversations by the Trinoma park watching people go back and forth in front of us. hahaha... We decided to go for dinner... We went to Silla this Korean restaurant to celebrate the opening of Gay Pride "Sanctuary of Love".

After dinner we went to Palawan... To see whats going on. The drag show was OK except for the super censored one Eww... Guess who else was there, and seated near the stage... It was the fashion director hahaha...

Today... I went home at 3:00am Jeff and Jeffy dropped me home. I fell asleep instantly... Woke up at 1:30pm just in time for breakfast. I was just planning to check my multiply but then just decided to blog all of my thoughts and happenings in my life.

The Other Day... It was effortless hehehe... Jhon Ogayon made me this white and gold empire cut evening gown. The performance together with the Hot Legs... Hmmm it was interesting.

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Crashing Moments... Part II

What if I come to the end of my life and realize that I'd spent everyday watching for a man who would never come to me? What an unbearable sorrow it would be, to realize I'd really tasted the things I'd eaten, or seen the places I'd been because I'd thought of nothing but waiting even while my life was drifting away from me.

And yet if I drew my heart back what life would I have? I would be like a dancer who had practiced since childhood for a performance I would never give.

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Thought's About Gay Pride...

Live your life in a manner that best suits you. Weather you are IN and OUT of the closet is not really that important anymore. What's important is, you have accepted who you really are, and live a decent and productive life which you don't intentionally step on others in order to reach your goals and personal happiness... hahaha (Diba redundant!)

Because in the end, a person will not be remembered for being a homosexual nor a heterosexual but by the way he lived his life, and the positive influence it had on people...

NOTE: Sorry for the incorrect grammar and incorrect sentence structure... *Giggles... I wasn't thinking right! Happy Gay Pride Everybody!!!! See you at GOVERNMENT.

Just a Thought?!

How can we love people who do not seem to make things worth at all? Why do we become so numb caring for people whom at times do not even think of us in a day or two? Why do we let ourselves hurt and continue hoping for a love that makes us defenseless? And why do we prioritize these people who only choose us as options? Are these the reasons why sometimes in love, we end up losing ourselves?

Sad as it may seem, but that's reality...

Motherrr Has Spoken...

Beware of "CHEMICAL LOVE."

Being under the influence of alcohol, party treats, and the like can and will distort reality.Ahhhh.. the feeling of euphoria, of "LOVE", of ecstasy... What a feeling!!!

Abuse of any kind can be a danger to your physical being, but rarely do we talk about the consequences that the abuse can cause to our emotional state especially when it involves romance. Many of us have done it . I HAVE DONE IT -- Falling in love while being under the influence. Before we know it, we have committed ourselves to a relationship!! Then after the high is gone, are the feelings still there??? Reality check honey...

Beware of "CHEMICAL LOVE."

It is a golden rule NOT TO FALL IN LOVE while being under the influence. LOVE and CHEMICALS just do not mix! But LOVE based on reality and strenghtened by "real" challenges that couples face -- this is TRUE LOVE.
The same thing goes with friends. We need to have a reality check with the so called "friends" that we have AFTER the chemicals have subsided. I have a favorite quote: "Good friends ride with you in a Mercedes Benz, a GREAT friend will ride with you in a bus." Make sure your friends are there with or without chemicals, or with or without money.

I am not here to endorse chemical use because I am a firm believer in enriching your life first through inner happiness, self-acceptance, self-pride, and self-respect. Empower yourself first by focusing on your career, education, and your family. Focus on COMPLETING YOUR INNER SELF. Never depend on someone to COMPLETE YOU Coz it ain't happening childrennn. ONLY YOU CAN COMPLETE YOURSELF.

If you choose to use chemicals, that is truly YOUR BUSINESS. Just make sure you can afford it honey. BUT, before you even entertain "ROMANTIC LOVE" while being "chemicalized" (I just invented that word ), PINCH yourself in the ass first. Internalize and say to yourself -- THIS IS NOT REAL! 'Coz trust me.. IT AIN'T REAL.

Beware of "CHEMICAL LOVE."

Thursday, June 7, 2007

To All Of You!

This should probably be taped to your bathroom mirror where one could read it everyday. You may not realize it, but it's 99% ok fine 100% true.

1.) There are at least two people in this world that you would die for.
2.) At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3.) The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4.) A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5.) Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6.) You mean the world to someone.
7.) You are special and unique.
8.) Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
9.) When you make the biggest mistake, something good comes from it.
10.) When you think the world has turned its back on you take another look.
11.) Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.

Always remember....when life hands you Lemons, ask for tequila and salt, and call me over! Good friends are like stars... You don't always see them, but you know they are always there.

"Whenever God Closes One Door He Always Opens Another, Even Though Sometimes It's Hell in the Hallway"

I would rather have one rose and a kind word from a friend while I'm here than a whole truck load when I'm gone.


On the Earth I have known Heaven, I remember each of those precious days. But my heart will bleed forever, and these days, now gone, will be years of pain.

From this dream I’m now woken, yet I’m strong to face it, to open my eyes, though my heart will always be broken, it is better than beautiful but empty lies… When eternity has ended with the broken promise of endless love, I wonder if it all has happened… Have I really meant everything in someone’s life?

Have been sleeping with eyes open? Has he been a wraith, and his love - a dream? Are the oaths of love forgotten? Is my lonely soul forgotten by him?

Blear moonlight on my pale face, tears of havoc, still shining in blinded eyes…Well-known shapes of lurking shadows… I’m all alone through this long cold night…

I’m fighting with arms broken, I will carry on, and my heart will beat, If forgotten, then forgotten… I’m stronger, I will just forgive.

Even if it’s our farewell, I will live, my blood will flow through my veins, even if I never reach Heaven, tomorrow will be a new day…

Tuesday, June 5, 2007


WE?... There was never a "WE".
You and Me - That's what we were.

Just two separate people who
by fate, destiny, or whatever,
crossed path, faced life together,
and for a while it was beautiful.

When it was time to step up,
we chose to walk away from it all.
Unscathed yes, yet empty because
of the simple fact that neither was
willing to fight.

So... There was never a WE.
But someday, when I'm brave
enough, I'll let you know...

You were everything to me...

Sunday, June 3, 2007

My Crashing Moments...

Often times we ask ourselves, how am I not getting someone to love me...

Why are others so fortunate in easily finding the right person for them? Why are there people confused on who to love when others dont have anyone who will love them?...

Its really bothering when around you are people who are contented and happy with whom they have... And you... ALONE... You have none...

Saturday, June 2, 2007

Last Nights Festivities...

Wave 13 Project POPCORN.
Divine Divaness at Offer Nissim.

With Josh and Wiley

Jerico and Red.

With Jun Escario and Jethro.
With Wiley and Klein
Gossips with Dj Bam
With Jerico, Red, and Jp.

Pre-process Week...

Sunday... I spent time with good friends at CGS. for a sleep over... We had a marathon of Queer as Folk. My friend Red called telling me that he's crashing. He was crashing about two of our partner friends fighting over something. I asked him to come over but he couldn't he had to work early tomorrow. We slept at 2:30am.

Monday... I woke up just in time for me to prepare for work... It was the first day of our pre-process training. I left CGS at exactly 10:30am and went to starbucks at 11am. Call time was 11:30am and classes begins at exactly 12nn. The day turned out really well the class was not boring the instructor was a friend of mine *Giggles... funny because we see each other all the time at Government.

We discussed the company profile because my account was called project "POPCORN". its a code name for "@# & #". Sorry its confidential *Giggles...

We had our first break at 2:30pm then followed by lunch at 4pm then another 15 minute break 7pm. Then finally we were dismissed at exactly 9pm.

Tuesday... Another day and I cant afford to be late! Accenture is very strict when it comes to time. Every minute counts.

We discussed the map of the United States the POPCORN States, the spiels, and the scenario. Interesting its just like going back to college. At Fordham I mean. *Giggles...

After work Henry, Jhon, John, Wiley, and I went for bowling.

Wednesday... I was rushing to the office because Mom said she was going to drop me off but she changed her my mind in a moments notice. *Grrr... I was already in the taxi on my way to work but I realize... I cant take the taxi forever 1st its too expensive 2nd its already 11am. and I might not make it on time for class. I wouldn't want to sing and dance in front of the class hello?!

I got off at taft ave and u.n ave and decided to take the LRT then MRT to Boni ave... Guess what I was not late at all in fact I was there at exactly 11:45am.

On my way home I bought an MRT store value card so I wont be falling on line in the morning.

Thursday... Hectic day we had to practise our spiels because tomorrow is our last day and we have an exam about everything we discussed and as well as the last final exam for pre-process which is the mock calls.

Friday... Woke up really early... and needed to go to the office so i can compare notes and practice the scrip that I have. 1pm we took our exam I got an 86 out of 99. We had another long break played games, had lunch and proceeded to the 22nd floor for the last exam...

I was the last one who was called for testing... The girl I was talking to was really annoying and irritating... I resolved her issue but she was really rude and hanged up on me...

I thought I wasn't going to pass but I did... So happy... *Sighs...

I got home early, just in time to text everybody that I've placed them at the guest list. At government "Offer Nissim".

I had so much fun, I saw my old friends Tonjie, Angelo, and Tommy. As well as My good friends Red, Mark, Jp, Klein, and Wiley. Thanks guys...