Saturday, March 31, 2007
You plan to be young forever. You plan to climb the corporate ladder. You plan to be rich and powerful. You plan to be acclaimed and successful. You plan to conquer the universe. You plan to fall in love - and be loved forever.
You don't plan to be sad. You don't plan to be hurt. You don't plan to be broken. You don't plan to be betrayed. You don't plan to be alone in this world. You plan to be happy. You don't plan to be shattered.
Sometimes if you work hard enough, you can get what you want. But most times, what you want and what you get are two different things. We, mortals, plan. But so does God in the heavens. Sometimes, it is difficult to understand God's plans- especially when His plans are not in consonance with ours. Often, when God sends us crisis, we turn to Him in anger. True, we cannot choose the cross that God wishes us to carry but we can carry that cross with courage, knowing that God will never abandon us nor send something we cannot cope with. Sometimes, God breaks our spirit to save our soul. Sometimes, He break our heart to make us whole. Sometimes, God sends us pain so we can be stronger. Sometimes, God sends us failure so we can be humble. Sometimes Godsends us illness so we can take better care of our selves. Sometimes, God takes everything away from us so we can learn the value of everything He gave us.
Make plans but understand that we live by God's grace. Growing up we get dismayed by there allocation that we could not get everything we want. Growing old, we should be delighted by the realization that although we can't have everything we want, we can want everything we have. "God will either give you what you want or far better than what you wished.
Keep on praying ... But be thankful that His answers are always wiser than your prayers."
I fell asleep right away after that call... During that not so deep sleep. I dreamt about Red. It was like, I was riding with him going to Gov with all of my belongings for an event. We went to a place that looks like a vacant complex with a lamp post and beside it is an old mint green apartment building, where another friend of mine was standing waiting impatiently. We both walked over to him. Oh my gosh it was "Leo Posadas!" He was bragging about something but then Red was acting some what with disbelief of what Leo was saying. He looked at me and I said I went out of my way just to let you know... Then Leo said "He's not worth it!".
We then went to this old empty garage in the same complex, where I saw Red taking out boxes of things. I saw a recently used Sushi showcase refrigerator with pieces of left over garnishes. It was like his car dumped with so many garbage.
When all of the stuff was out his car looked like an old over used van with no upholstery as in ragged. He then said lets go were leaving. Red seated in front of me face to face. Jp looked like he was hanging from the rail like a on a jeep. Bebe and Mark are seated behind me. It was really weird. Then suddenly I remembered that I had an appointment with Qua the make-up artist from Shu Eumura. Then Mark asked me about my dress. When I showed it to him it didn't look like it was mine. But it looked like a futuristic torn one. ... Weird!
The van was already moving but no driver. I was trying to gaze at the driver but just could not see him. The driver was really driving really fast... On the side of the street I saw three young girls walking really fast. because the it seemed like it was flooded with dirty water mixed with thick mud. I saw it. It was like a wave of black mud.
The van was still moving. Up ahead I saw two humongous crane trucks as huge as five story buildings with large wheels racing in front of us. We tried to over take it was just like being on a real aggressive race. The driver went under the one truck just to over take we almost hit the crane of the other truck. Then I woke up! from the beep of my cell phone as reminder that I have unread messages.
Coincidentally the message was from Red. Funny but then I was a little worried. I texted back and said to him to "be careful on your way home".
Friday, March 30, 2007
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Today... I was really pissed because I was hoping that I made money out of the exhibit. I learned my lesson... I guess you cannot really trust this specific one. Everything should be black and white.
The Other Day... Jhon and I met at Edsa Mrt to meet Henry to him to get his boots. it was really an interesting day because it was shared with good friends. In the evening we went to this party at Dapitan... It was so much fun except it was really hot meaning I felt like I burned so much because of the heat at that party.
Friday, March 23, 2007
Sometimes, there is a concern, a need for a quick prayer, and it encourages me to know that they are always there. I hear the birds early chirping, with happy songs in their hearts, and just like my friends, they give me a cheerful start.
Im blessed each and every morning to see their names in my mailing list, and when one isn't there, they are truly missed. Even though we are far apart, and exist in Cyber Space I hope, someday to meet them all smiling face to face.
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Today... I went to work after lunch checked my mails, went to my appointments then eventually walked to the gym. I needed to take off the calories that I took this long weekend.
The Other Day... It was my 3rd party of the year. The party of the selected few. Well the "selected few" turned out to be a big party for the selected few's it was so much fun. There was so much food and a lot of booze. Im happy because I still have really super good friends around. I am so blessed for that.
Last Saturday... Was confusing, I had an invite from Dj Kevin Ruiz personally at the Ware House but then I had another invite from my best friend Henry for the Summer Ball at government. Both events have a different attire. The one at government is Summer and the one at Ware House is Club Chic.
I went to Government with my Beach Louie Vuitton look but eventually had too much to party. I went outside government... Honey, It was Hello Sunshine! I had to rush home to get ready for my party. hahaha
Friday, March 16, 2007
If you know love has faded just let go and dont dream as if there is still chance for love to come back. Because the more you deny what's inside your heart the more pain you are trying to catch...
This is for you... You know who you are!
Thursday, March 15, 2007
I went to government last night for the Birthday Party of 3 of my good friends. Tam Dizon, Qua and Bebe. David my best friend got me a present a BVLGARI OMNIA so sweet of him.
Today. I woke up around 11ish, so hung over from last nights activities. Went to work late, made calls and in an hour I'll be on my mary way to the gym.
The Other Day. I had a free tasting of the cakes and pastries the other day. It was a referral hope I get it.
Monday, March 12, 2007
Sunday, March 11, 2007
I didn't go to the gym today since that it was Sunday. I wanted to go but my mind didnt so I guess I'll just go to bed early. Tomorrow will be a new day. Take care and stay clean...
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Thanks Baby... I had so much fun.
Friday, March 9, 2007
I'm not worried if I would be able to admire someone as much as I have admired you. I may even cherish someone more than I have cherished you. But I don't know if there's still someone who would adore you as much as I have adored you....
Wednesday, March 7, 2007
Tuesday, March 6, 2007
Today... I woke up just in time went to the office spoke to people and went to my luncheon. I just hate it when their late. I got home at 1:30pm. Had a conference with my super friends Mikee and Lawrence about matters from the heart. I feel empty so today... I guess I just parteed really hard time to hit the Spa.
The Other Day... I attended a party of Bebe Hernandez at Paseo Park View Makati with my Mamita. We both had a wonderful time except for the Bb. Pilipinas part headed by Amentia. Josh has done it again. Thats why we cant be in the same room together. After party was at Club Government. Strange! It wasn't really that packed. I guess the Charles Carpio story did it. That's ok atleast I we were there for the support. Everybody was looking for partee... Too bad Im the only one who can get some. hehehe
Friday, March 2, 2007
My Cousin Ryan said I cant do it... That even made me more stronger and willing to exert all the effort to be who I want to be...
I dont think this is a phase because I haven't felt so much determination in my life. Before I remember I tried to work out, but did not continue I couldn't stand the pain. Now it has been four consecutive days I've been in and out of the Health Club and actually enjoying it. Thats why I said I never felt so determined in my life. So I will really make it on this one. Wish me luck...
Thursday, March 1, 2007
Love yourself first before sharing yourself to somebody because if you dont, you will always look for the people that you think can make you complete and in the end, it will make you lose yourself more bit by bit. Piece by peice.
I love you Rommel... Im just here for you.