Cannot Connect With Sync?!

Chapter I... I Know I haven't been around much as I used to. Well simply I've been so busy with training in my new job. "Super fucking career shift to the Nth level". Before I could never imagine myself working for a "Call Center!" But you know what?! I have to say this, its not easy to work in a call center. Too much demands, way too much... Hello?! after two months of training long ours on the phone resolving issues, I could not even imagine I can...

My first and a half months at work was exciting. Orientation was interesting... It was three days of attitude, confidence, owning the company, what is the company, who is the company, etc. etc.

Chapter II... Was "Pre-process" Hmmm this was fun... It was English only policy, I can live with that! It was just like going back to school taking English 101 with Jason our fabulous trainer. Learning about the Italian A's and ahh's. Passed the exams the mock calls and I even danced the Conga! when we lost the games hehehe...

Chapter III... Was "Product Training" first day was relaxed. I guess the trainer Jeff was feeling the class. The second day we had a quiz, but the third day... Oh my gosh honey it was like super dooper information overload as in "FATAL" I felt like I was having a nose bleed. Imagine shoving all computer information, info's about email, kinds of modems, routers, yahoo issues, the connection from the server to the DSLAM, the status of the modem lights, kinds operating systems, browsers, ipconfig, connection problem in "General". Honey too many to mention... All of these I learned at product training... In fairness I met someone during our charades with "wave 12" Badong what an ER name. Well as usual I asked him for his number. Hey you know me?!...

Chapter IV... was a week with James at nesting... I admit it I over reacted and gave so much bad attitude towards the trainer... Hello he was so annoying that he always asks questions about sync and authentication, and even embarrassed me in front of the class. I was not really feeling well that night, I was actually feeling like I was getting down on something. The next day I was really feeling sick I mean having fever. I called the attendance hot line called in sick... But then I figured if I skip one day I would be joining the next class.

Fine!!! I got up and went to work with a fever... It was time for class and James was in the mood for recitation of course I was his apple of the eye. He asked me a question about "Sync and Authentication" I answered but could not explain further. He kept on giving me problems about "Cannot connect with sync using a 2 wire modem!" over and over until I snapped and "STOP this is me?! Can I go out for a while?!" I was so pissed off felt like if I didn't say that I will say awful things about him being a homophobic homo! Walk out of class took a walk and spoke to Jelly my team leader friend it was a sudden burst of emotion.

After a few minutes went back to class feeling OK and less irritated James did not asked me anymore questions... I know he was just doing his job. He called for a 20 minute break. During break I saw James sitting at Starbucks smoking... I asked Paolo, "Do you think I should talk to James about what happened earlier?" Paolo said "Nah do it next time". But then I said to myself I have to resolve this issue. Confidently I came up to him and said. "Hi James, I'm sorry on how I acted earlier." It was uncalled for... I explained my side, he explained his. At least now he knows how stressed I am and he respects me now.

Just A Commercial Break... Much to my surprice before going home, I met up with Badong at the elevator. I just smiled at him and said my usual Hello's. As soon as I got off he went ahead of me. I walked out of the building took a cigarette from my bag and went outside the lobby. Well I saw him talking to his collegue hmmm. As usual I needed to smoke 1st and chit chat with collegues before I proceed home. When I was going to give him a glance he came up to me and said: "Charles... Hindi mo naman ako tinetxt eh?! Not even once! (Charles... How come your not texting me?) I said: "Hello I always do your the one who doesn't text. Isn't this your number?!" I showed him my phone. He said: "You got the last number wrong?!" He corrected it. and I said OK thanks see you around. Kilig factor?!

Going back anyway, where was I? Our last two days with James was actually stressful... We already took real calls. All of my calls where shitty... When I say shitty it means really bad... But then business as usual. I hated doing the calls I didn't really like it at first but I just have to get used to it. Our last day with James was actually just the introduction part informational and part actual of the real training.

Another Commercial Break... One day I was doing my laundry at Nebs apartment. Because we went to tagaytay for dinner and went back to manila the same night on the way to tagaytay I was texting Badong about thoughts of him hehehe. He replied and said he was watching a movie with a friend. Fine... When we came back from Tagaytay I texted him to let he know I am back... He replied back but unfortunately I've already fallen a sleep. The next day I was actually doing my laundry. Anyway he asked me If I had plans for tonight I said not really then he asked me to watch a movie to see Harry Potter ahhh Hmmmm... I dont know what to say... OK lets watch a movie so we did... Kilig Factor... He picked me up at 7:30pm we had dinner and then coffee and then to Malate then back to CGS. It was so much fun... *Giggles...

Chapter V... with the SME's from India... Chirag, Afgan, Mortaza and Naval. Our foreign trainors for "Extended Nesting" Three weeks of calls and up training. Chirag looked like "Doding Daga" every time there was a discussion or in call center term "Up-training" Charlie and I would always have our giggles at the back bench of the class. He never really stayed with us because he was transferred to wave 14.

Afgan was OK... Indians? I guess they like gay people constantly flirting but cheap in many ways. I learned so much from Afgan... Hello?! before I hated taking calls... Now I am actually addicted to it. hahaha Imagine that. Before I always throw shade at people talking about modems during break. Now I am the first one to actually talk about it. hehehe Naval and Mortaza... the I1 and I2. Always together... Naval was really nice and patient. He trained me all the way. It took me 7 QA's (Quality Assurance) before I actually passed.

Last Commercial Break... I went to the office early because I was going to meet Neil at Starbucks. Then fine I thought about Badong... I got him something from Starbucks a Turkey sandwich and a double chocolate chip cookie for his lunch break... Sweet?! I gave it to him when he got in... He said Awww thank you... Hey lets have lunch later ok?

OK he asked me out for lunch that's nice... 3am it was time for lunch. I was actually going to take my lunch. I texted him and said "Hey do you want to have lunch now?" He replied and said in 30mins". So I said ok I guess I'll take another call. So I did took a call... The call lasted more than 30mins. Oh shit! Badong texted me and said he was going to take his lunch and we'll see each other at Starbucks... I finished my call and there was just 15mins left to his break and he had to go back to work... Completely Flattering... He actually waited for me to go down and he was also willing to wait for me till I finished my meal. *Sigh...

Tonight I will be in production... In the real world no more Up-Training, no more last calls, and definitely no more call avoidance's. Tonight is actually my 1st day as a real "AT&T Technical Support Agent". Wish me luck?!

Just a Thought...

worry wastes your precious time,
resentment destroys your effectiveness
and anxiety drains your energy. a
peaceful mind, on the other hand, puts
you firmly in control and out of the
reach of the world's negative distractions.


empty your mind of the stressful
thoughts and peace will fill the space
left behind.

Yesterday, Today, and the Other Day...

Yesterday... Or should I say "Last Night" we went to Trinoma this new Ayala land development in Quezon City. I was with Jeff and Jeffy. I was not really in a going out mood because I didn't get enough sleep due to super extreme partying... I was actually super crashing. I felt like I was so empty, as if I was a person who gave away all my energy, love, and emotions.


Last Night didn't really turn out bad. We met Henry, Jhon, Anna, and this "guy" who's a V.I.P at Palawan Disco bar. My best friend Henry gave me surprise gift... A 20 karat triangle divine divaness ring... All of the emptiness and sadness were gone. And was filled with joy and happiness. "Thanks Henry!"


After our intimate conversations by the Trinoma park watching people go back and forth in front of us. hahaha... We decided to go for dinner... We went to Silla this Korean restaurant to celebrate the opening of Gay Pride "Sanctuary of Love".


After dinner we went to Palawan... To see whats going on. The drag show was OK except for the super censored one Eww... Guess who else was there, and seated near the stage... It was the fashion director hahaha...


Today... I went home at 3:00am Jeff and Jeffy dropped me home. I fell asleep instantly... Woke up at 1:30pm just in time for breakfast. I was just planning to check my multiply but then just decided to blog all of my thoughts and happenings in my life.


The Other Day... It was effortless hehehe... Jhon Ogayon made me this white and gold empire cut evening gown. The performance together with the Hot Legs... Hmmm it was interesting.


http://governmentchildren.multiply.com/

Crashing Moments... Part II

What if I come to the end of my life and realize that I'd spent everyday watching for a man who would never come to me? What an unbearable sorrow it would be, to realize I'd really tasted the things I'd eaten, or seen the places I'd been because I'd thought of nothing but waiting even while my life was drifting away from me.


And yet if I drew my heart back what life would I have? I would be like a dancer who had practiced since childhood for a performance I would never give.

Thought's About Gay Pride...

Live your life in a manner that best suits you. Weather you are IN and OUT of the closet is not really that important anymore. What's important is, you have accepted who you really are, and live a decent and productive life which you don't intentionally step on others in order to reach your goals and personal happiness... hahaha (Diba redundant!)


Because in the end, a person will not be remembered for being a homosexual nor a heterosexual but by the way he lived his life, and the positive influence it had on people...


NOTE: Sorry for the incorrect grammar and incorrect sentence structure... *Giggles... I wasn't thinking right! Happy Gay Pride Everybody!!!! See you at GOVERNMENT.

Just a Thought?!

How can we love people who do not seem to make things worth at all? Why do we become so numb caring for people whom at times do not even think of us in a day or two? Why do we let ourselves hurt and continue hoping for a love that makes us defenseless? And why do we prioritize these people who only choose us as options? Are these the reasons why sometimes in love, we end up losing ourselves?


Sad as it may seem, but that's reality...

Motherrr Has Spoken...

Beware of "CHEMICAL LOVE."


Being under the influence of alcohol, party treats, and the like can and will distort reality.Ahhhh.. the feeling of euphoria, of "LOVE", of ecstasy... What a feeling!!!


Abuse of any kind can be a danger to your physical being, but rarely do we talk about the consequences that the abuse can cause to our emotional state especially when it involves romance. Many of us have done it . I HAVE DONE IT -- Falling in love while being under the influence. Before we know it, we have committed ourselves to a relationship!! Then after the high is gone, are the feelings still there??? Reality check honey...


Beware of "CHEMICAL LOVE."


It is a golden rule NOT TO FALL IN LOVE while being under the influence. LOVE and CHEMICALS just do not mix! But LOVE based on reality and strenghtened by "real" challenges that couples face -- this is TRUE LOVE.
The same thing goes with friends. We need to have a reality check with the so called "friends" that we have AFTER the chemicals have subsided. I have a favorite quote: "Good friends ride with you in a Mercedes Benz, a GREAT friend will ride with you in a bus." Make sure your friends are there with or without chemicals, or with or without money.


I am not here to endorse chemical use because I am a firm believer in enriching your life first through inner happiness, self-acceptance, self-pride, and self-respect. Empower yourself first by focusing on your career, education, and your family. Focus on COMPLETING YOUR INNER SELF. Never depend on someone to COMPLETE YOU Coz it ain't happening childrennn. ONLY YOU CAN COMPLETE YOURSELF.


If you choose to use chemicals, that is truly YOUR BUSINESS. Just make sure you can afford it honey. BUT, before you even entertain "ROMANTIC LOVE" while being "chemicalized" (I just invented that word ), PINCH yourself in the ass first. Internalize and say to yourself -- THIS IS NOT REAL! 'Coz trust me.. IT AIN'T REAL.


Beware of "CHEMICAL LOVE."

To All Of You!

This should probably be taped to your bathroom mirror where one could read it everyday. You may not realize it, but it's 99% ok fine 100% true.


1.) There are at least two people in this world that you would die for.
2.) At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3.) The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4.) A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5.) Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6.) You mean the world to someone.
7.) You are special and unique.
8.) Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
9.) When you make the biggest mistake, something good comes from it.
10.) When you think the world has turned its back on you take another look.
11.) Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.


Always remember....when life hands you Lemons, ask for tequila and salt, and call me over! Good friends are like stars... You don't always see them, but you know they are always there.


"Whenever God Closes One Door He Always Opens Another, Even Though Sometimes It's Hell in the Hallway"


I would rather have one rose and a kind word from a friend while I'm here than a whole truck load when I'm gone.

Untitled...

On the Earth I have known Heaven, I remember each of those precious days. But my heart will bleed forever, and these days, now gone, will be years of pain.


From this dream I’m now woken, yet I’m strong to face it, to open my eyes, though my heart will always be broken, it is better than beautiful but empty lies… When eternity has ended with the broken promise of endless love, I wonder if it all has happened… Have I really meant everything in someone’s life?


Have been sleeping with eyes open? Has he been a wraith, and his love - a dream? Are the oaths of love forgotten? Is my lonely soul forgotten by him?


Blear moonlight on my pale face, tears of havoc, still shining in blinded eyes…Well-known shapes of lurking shadows… I’m all alone through this long cold night…


I’m fighting with arms broken, I will carry on, and my heart will beat, If forgotten, then forgotten… I’m stronger, I will just forgive.


Even if it’s our farewell, I will live, my blood will flow through my veins, even if I never reach Heaven, tomorrow will be a new day…

WE?...

WE?... There was never a "WE".
You and Me - That's what we were.


Just two separate people who
by fate, destiny, or whatever,
crossed path, faced life together,
and for a while it was beautiful.


When it was time to step up,
we chose to walk away from it all.
Unscathed yes, yet empty because
of the simple fact that neither was
willing to fight.


So... There was never a WE.
But someday, when I'm brave
enough, I'll let you know...


You were everything to me...

You Are All Invited!!!

My Crashing Moments...

Often times we ask ourselves, how am I not getting someone to love me...


Why are others so fortunate in easily finding the right person for them? Why are there people confused on who to love when others dont have anyone who will love them?...


Its really bothering when around you are people who are contented and happy with whom they have... And you... ALONE... You have none...

Last Nights Festivities...

Wave 13 Project POPCORN.

Divine Divaness at Offer Nissim.

With Josh and Wiley


Jerico and Red.

With Jun Escario and Jethro.
With Wiley and Klein
Gossips with Dj Bam
With Jerico, Red, and Jp.

Pre-process Week...

Sunday... I spent time with good friends at CGS. for a sleep over... We had a marathon of Queer as Folk. My friend Red called telling me that he's crashing. He was crashing about two of our partner friends fighting over something. I asked him to come over but he couldn't he had to work early tomorrow. We slept at 2:30am.


Monday... I woke up just in time for me to prepare for work... It was the first day of our pre-process training. I left CGS at exactly 10:30am and went to starbucks at 11am. Call time was 11:30am and classes begins at exactly 12nn. The day turned out really well the class was not boring the instructor was a friend of mine *Giggles... funny because we see each other all the time at Government.


We discussed the company profile because my account was called project "POPCORN". its a code name for "@# & #". Sorry its confidential *Giggles...


We had our first break at 2:30pm then followed by lunch at 4pm then another 15 minute break 7pm. Then finally we were dismissed at exactly 9pm.


Tuesday... Another day and I cant afford to be late! Accenture is very strict when it comes to time. Every minute counts.


We discussed the map of the United States the POPCORN States, the spiels, and the scenario. Interesting its just like going back to college. At Fordham I mean. *Giggles...


After work Henry, Jhon, John, Wiley, and I went for bowling.


Wednesday... I was rushing to the office because Mom said she was going to drop me off but she changed her my mind in a moments notice. *Grrr... I was already in the taxi on my way to work but I realize... I cant take the taxi forever 1st its too expensive 2nd its already 11am. and I might not make it on time for class. I wouldn't want to sing and dance in front of the class hello?!


I got off at taft ave and u.n ave and decided to take the LRT then MRT to Boni ave... Guess what I was not late at all in fact I was there at exactly 11:45am.


On my way home I bought an MRT store value card so I wont be falling on line in the morning.


Thursday... Hectic day we had to practise our spiels because tomorrow is our last day and we have an exam about everything we discussed and as well as the last final exam for pre-process which is the mock calls.


Friday... Woke up really early... and needed to go to the office so i can compare notes and practice the scrip that I have. 1pm we took our exam I got an 86 out of 99. We had another long break played games, had lunch and proceeded to the 22nd floor for the last exam...


I was the last one who was called for testing... The girl I was talking to was really annoying and irritating... I resolved her issue but she was really rude and hanged up on me...


I thought I wasn't going to pass but I did... So happy... *Sighs...


I got home early, just in time to text everybody that I've placed them at the guest list. At government "Offer Nissim".


I had so much fun, I saw my old friends Tonjie, Angelo, and Tommy. As well as My good friends Red, Mark, Jp, Klein, and Wiley. Thanks guys...